Change Born of Control or Love?

How do you know whether a change or action is born of control or love?  Something that is born of control will have a positive or negative agenda alongside it.  There will be a reason for the change, or a defined need for it.  There will be a why, that is justified based on experience.  It will feel hard and it will take effort to enact, usually quite a bit of manipulation or strategic maneuvering to get things moving.  But yet, it will be deemed worth it, as the foreseen outcome or result is an improved, better or more desired state or condition than before.  Something born of love, although pregnant with choice, doesn't feel like it.  There is just this knowing that something new or different is ready to unfold.  There is an exploration to be engaged, or met with curiosity and wonder.  Although a reason for a change could be invented or established, in the truest sense, there isn't one.  Yet inherent in the action is an innate intelligence or spontaneous wisdom that includes and considers what has gone before it and has a sense of what is to come.

For many, we have not truly known love in this world as of yet.  We may have seen or felt expressions of it, or tasted moments of it, or caught glimpses of it, enough to yearn for it.  As we breath and meet this yearning, perhaps now is the time when we will know love.  This frequency, or quality, or sense of spaciousness or softness can move through our hearts, and bodies and minds and begin to change everything, spontaneously resolving that which was deemed impossible to modify or adjust or fix or improve with agenda.  Our innocence is unmoved by agendas.  It stares at them and wonders if the day will come when we will set them aside. 

To participate in the realm of control and fear we put things in place and found a way to respond to agendas and adopt good reasons, well thought out justifications and appropriate directions.  Now many of us are ready to give these up, surrendering the deep fatigue that sits on top of our innocence...that waits, for us, until we are truly ready to reclaim it.  Then love can have its way, and move through the totality of the Self once again, with a smile.   May we come to know this love and laugh as we surrender our failed attempts at control.  We did so well pretending we knew what we were doing, when we knew deep down that something....everything, was missing.  Now everything is here, to meet us beyond the realm of control where we can know love and taste freedom.  It is not better, or right or good, just... different.