One thing I realized recently is that when I have a lot of ease in my life these feelings of guilt show up. I feel bad for having so much ease. It's a strange reality, that previously, rather than continuing to add even more ease and joy to my life, I would instead find someone who was having a difficult time, or suffering mentally and/or emotionally and put a lot of my focus and attention on them. Often I would offer them more of my presence, time and attention than they were truly asking for, however it was something I just did and wasn't overly conscious of why. I've recently become aware that I was choosing that to keep me from feeling the guilt of having too much ease. There were these points of views in place that somehow it just wasn't fair for me to "have it easy." It was just plain wrong. Often to avoid feeling wrong and guilty I would also prove to myself and sometimes others how much work I'd done to get to the inner space of ease, peace and calm that I can now choose, essentially it was an "I deserve this" type justification. I remember in academia doing something similar, when someone would say "that was so easy for you" I would often bring up all the time, focus and work I had committed to completing the paper or project. Have you ever received the message that it's wrong to have ease? What have you been or done to avoid having too much ease in your life?
There's this other belief too that if we have what we desire in our lives, and have total ease and unending joy, we'll stop growing or stop learning or become complacent. We're so used to pain, suffering, dis-ease and the wanting or desiring for something we don't have being a motivator to grow, learn and expand. It's safe to want what we don't have or have what we don't want, but if we actually have what we truly desire and receive the life, living, body and reality we are asking for often times we'll actually be quite uncomfortable with it. It's comfortable to want it, it's not so comfortable to have it. Or if you have it, you have to make sure that you lose it or destroy it, diminish it, or pretend it's not that big of a deal or important to have it. We also often have imprints or beliefs about not wanting to stand out or be too different or have what other people don't have, because if we do we'll be judged, hated, taken down or rejected in some way. I wonder how much of all of this can change now?
What if right now we can choose ease without guilt? And as we do, how many other people can we invite to have this too? It's not about convincing others that they should have it, or stopping ourselves and waiting until they ask or are ready for it, it's more about choosing to have it, be it, expand out and contribute that energy, space, consciousness and possibility to the world through our very Being. How much joy and ease can we add to our lives now? What would it be like to allow joy and ease to inspire us to create even more possibilities and generative realities in our lives? Keeping ourselves from ease doesn't benefit other people. Us having what other people don't have and then feeling bad about it doesn't help or assist other people to become greater. I wonder if something totally different is possible now, a different approach, a different reality, where choosing joy and ease invites more people to the celebration of living, or at least gives them the choice to have it. We can be the energetic bridge to something new. What would that be like for you?